Feelings
What are the feelings you feel on the regular? With a tiny condo full of littles, my most common emotions I was feeling were frustration, irritation, and annoyance. Fun life, right?
I always wanted to be a Mom, It was my dream. So obviously I assumed that when I was living my happily ever after, I’d be feeling happy, right? wrong! I felt terrible!! And I felt terrible about feeling terrible! I loved my little kiddos and babies so fiercely but I wasn’t feeling that love. And my husband would ask me things like “what’s your motivation for this irritation?” What?! I had no idea! Motivation? Huh?
So where do your feelings come from? Where were mine coming from? I thought it was from the kids. They were crazy and loud and messy and always fighting. Obviously that’s why I was feeling so annoyed, right? Wrong! Gosh, I was wrong a lot.
Turns out emotions are just a vibration in your body that Come From a THOUGHT in your Brain!! What?! Mind blown! Surely there was not enough time between crazy kid stimulus and my feeling for a thought to even exist. It was like the reflex test on your knee. Automatic reactions. No time to figure out what I was thinking and for sure no way to change it. Wrong again!
Over the YEARS now, I’ve been working on this. Slowing everything down. There is still chaos swirling around me but I don’t have to get so caught up in it. Just knowing where my emotions were coming from gave me so much power over my own life! and my Own experience of life!!
My husband was basically in the same circumstances as i was but he was still the happy go lucky dude that he is. Why did i turn into such a monster? I used to be fun, too! It wasn’t fair. And it was some mystery that surely was someone else’s fault. Wrong again.
Once I took ownership of the only thing I could control- myself! Then finally I got a grip on my emotions!
I’m definitely still human and I still have the full range of human emotions as we are all supposed to. But they don’t rule my life anymore. The whole day is not wrecked from one emotional outburst- whether mine or theirs!
Knowledge is power. And the knowledge I’ve gained about emotions has literally given me the power back in my own. life. So now my happily ever after is happy. Sometimes. And the other times. I can feel peaceful about the other emotions also!
